Kid's Prayer
Dear god, thank you for loving me and giving me your all
when i grow up, i will still be serving you
i want to know you more, i want to love you more
i'll never forget you lord, in jesus name, Amen
I want to know you lord, you are a great big god
i'm young and do not know alot
come and be my all
i want to love you more
giving you my life and all
you die for me, you sacrifice
i won't forget u lord
i love you jesus, i'll grow up knowing you
i love you jesus, i'll grow up serving you
i love you jesus, my life is saved by you
i'll never forget, never forget, i'll grow up loving you
i love you jesus i'll grow up knowing you
i love you jesus i'll grow up serving you
i love you jesus my life is saved by you
i'll never forget, never forget, i'll grow up loving you
xiaowei sent me this song.. a very nice song, which makes me wow, i wanna be a christian.. esp in times when i feel like i'm suffering from mild depression.
no, i'll never be one.. besides, my beloved grandmother was once a devoted buddhist.. lives in temple.. i have a home in a temple in msia.. how can i ever be one..
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i tell myself everything will be fine after a good night slp.
but when i open my eyes, i feel de same old thing again.
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a moment ago, i had de mood to study fluids. i had de mood to upload de photos. i had de mood to design a character of myself for that c25 thing, i wanted to blog de joke of de day. but now....
i wanna cry. cry badly. cry out EVERYTHING.. everything i've been feeling...
tears are rolling..
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There's so much things up in my mind. This is very unhealthy.
Its always like this when exam's round de corner. i hate this feeling.
Anyway today's my last lesson w de kid. we'll be having a break and tuition will resume in mid dec. so sad.. there goes de income... but to think on de brighter side, i'll have more time for studies as exam is nearing. i'm so curious how her grades will be like.
but for me, i'm so afraid that i'll fail computational methods and fluids =S
missing u
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i had a dream two nights ago. it made me feel so tired that i only woke up at 12 noon yesterday.
i miss you alot. i think of you day and night... really.
i miss you so much :(
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GREAT NEWS
Rem about one yr ago [alright not yet one but almost] my msn account was hacked by a desperate hacker?
tell me why am i so LUCKY to tio this kinda things ah? first hacker, then that china call [luckily i didn't answer], and now pervert.
Read back if you forgot/wanna know what happened.
My previous blog
its de 29th nov/1st dec entry.
Mum showed me the news. He was caught! I wasn't sure if it was him but now i'm very sure. cos de report fits PERFECTLY what he did...
Alright, brief summary of de news if you are interested. If you wanna read more, read that wan bao on 17th Oct. Its on de front cover pg man! HEADLINE! I think straits time have it too. You may check out if you are curious.
This hacker is 24 yrs old and is believed to be a student. Well, they didn't reveal which sch but i sorta know. because... you can come and ask me. He threatened gers to send him their nude pic else he'll go and modify their photo to a nude photo and post it online. (See how boliao can this guy be? He threatened me too.) And one ger really went to send him cos he threatened her. *SHAKES HEAD* she could have just report to de police...
He act as if he was that person and hacked their account such as Yahoo or MSN to chat with their friends. How he do that? ask me. The newspaper said that it all started way back last nov-dec (yes, it happened to me that period of time) and he had chat with 16 gers (or rather victims). Out of these 16, at least 7 (yes, that includes me and my friend) reported that he hacked their account, pretended to be them and chat with their friends. and de story continues.....
bit lazy to elaborate. haha..
see if you can read. i doubt so.. haha!
LETS THROW DARTS AT HIM
tsk. bo liao. sth wrong up there in his mind. guys.. how desperate can they be? if you are so good in yr photoshop skill, might as well put it to good use and not like this. since he's so good in hacking computer, i reckon he's good in programming? those comp stuffs.. ahhh, he would have scored well in computational methods then. rather than now.. getting caned, jailed or fine.. ruin his life only.
i don't understand why guys can be this desperate/horny/heartless. likes scaring gers with their manhood. does it do them good? does it make them high? do they get some sort of satisfaction? wassup with guys playing w gers and then dump them like rubbish?
guys are such bastards.
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PERVERT
i bet this pervert has been following me since god knows when.
and i can confirm that de FIRST encounter i had with that person who was scratching his dick is really that pervertic guy who masturbate at my house downstairs. simply ugly looking guy with bit of oily hair IF i never rem wrongly. fugly looking guy. asshole.. %~!#$%^&*@
ahhhhhhh.. must be too ugly that he has to resort to this kinda thing... desperate u.
when i reached de interchange earlier on, it suddenly struck me that i should call someone to talk to till i reach home in case i meet that pervert. wah lau! i should go buy toto!!!
was chatting with joan so enthusiastically bout genting trip till i reached my block downstairs.. i duno what makes me wanna turn back.. prolly to check if he was around. TO MY HORROR, HE WAS JUST BEHIND ME! yes, RIGHT BEHIND ME. It took me a while to recognise that fucking face.. and what reminded me of him was HE WAS SCRATCHING HIS DICK as usual. wtf. totally the same as de first encounter i had. same action. damn u. totally turn off.
first time scratching, second time masturbating, third time scratching. wth....
decided that its time i should tell my parents bout it. they went downstairs to see if he's still loitering around my area but couldn't find him. fuck.
my parents gonna wait for me downstairs frm tmr onwards...
go to hell you damn fugly looking pervert.
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This is simply making my mood goes very very bad. I really feel like tearing up these notes.
I think CBE students will not end up being a chemical engineer in future but in de mental hospital..
hello mr lewis randall, i don't like u.
my messy notes.
whole chunk of derivations making me go furious!!!
de only thing that makes me feel abit happier is that when i tried to do de last sem mcqs just now, i got correct for those that i've studied so far.. at least this makes me feel a lil more confident now. bahh. i hope he doesn't set tough mcqs tmr :(
ok, few days ago at mac. i wasn't that depressed yet. cos its only chapter one...
i think she looks more stressful. haha! but no la..
we got bored
i shouldn't be here. but i seriously don't feel like getting back to my notes!! :(
holidays pls come faster...
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why am i so suay?
:(
i think its a good thing to blog - in some ways. so that i can refer back to which incident happened on which day.
if you've been reading my blog regularly, few wks back, i wrote an entry regarding seeing one pervert under my block. not pervert.. but maybe, just someone who was scratching his dick. i said i chose to think it that way -> that its itchy. so when he saw me, he got no time to stop.. so he continued to think that its fine.
oh well.
while on my way home frm tuition just now, i saw something that got me a shock. i didn't know how to react.
imagine this scenerio..
you're on yr way home... so engrossed in reading yr kid's exam schedule.. and when you turned into yr block.. (there's a flight of stairs just beside de lifts) you saw someone sitting on de stairs. the night's quiet and no one's around. bet you'll get a shock right?
thats not de main pt.
i saw him masturbating. my heart immediately beat faster than usual. not that i'm excited. but was so shocked and scared. i can feel that heart beat beating so damn fast.. and i stared at him. tell u, i rem my mouth was open. he looked at me.. still doing it vigorously. his hands under his shorts. i just saw sth bulging out. *CRIES FOR HELP INSIDE* he doesn't seem to be shock when he saw me and he seems to be in his own world.
if you thought that i'll scream. no. i didn't. i just walked straight to de lift. oh man, i didn't even have the time to think if he'll follow me anot! i just quickly called babe. hands still trembling.
and stupid azrin, agnes and ruiming.. thought.. de same thing.
now i wonder, is he de same person as de one i saw that time?? i can't rem.
its just so.. dangerous.
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Another wkend gone, and nothing's done. i feel that i'm lagging behind so much now. don't feel like starting work too.. i'm still very tired.
this wkend was spent on birthdays. before i forget,
Happy Birthday Ishan!
though he won't read this. haha.. he's 4 yrs old now.
Friday, went sch in de evening for test. the haze is so terrible!! especially de west area i think. as a result, i'm declared sick now. damn it. Met sk, huoy and joan for dinner after test.. lolx, they're suggesting 1B gathering. like omg, how are they gonna find those people? haha.. lets see if there's really gonna be a gathering anot..
finally met sk who went m.i.a .... last saw her was APRIL lo..
Sat... met joan to get my hair trimmed.
after haircut
off we went to golden mile complex to buy tickets to genting! hoooooray! will be going with xw, sk and joan. haha.. can't wait. we passed by ST JOHN Headquarter on our way to bugis. still as lok-cock as ever. hahaha..
de place we used to go on sundays for nursing course..
those were de days.. SJAB
we were hungry. so decided to grab sth b4 heading to de party..
alright only. de chicken wings don't taste good..
bubble tea. de drink we used to invest alot back then in sec sch!
beanies. i don't like u.. give all to joan. hehe..
trip to genting! we chose cao2 yuan2 kuai4 che1. heh
de receipt...
we found this funny. hahaha! laughed our ass off..
'Bus toilets are for urinating only and not for passing motion.'
lolx!! was trying v hard not to laugh when de person told us. haha!
photos for qinwei's card..
de rest of de photos are with
ok, sch tmr again. sian.... i can't wait for my hol to come :(
meeting babe for lunch tmr! wheee!
sidetrack bit,
i'm glad de cards i did were all appreciated. at least it makes me feel that it was worth it to spend some of my precious time thats meant for studying on these people..
now i seriously needa catch up with my work :( gonna be a stressful wk ..
nites!
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I've decided to remove that previous entry so as not to spoil my entry on 5th oct.
The haze is driving me crazy... have this feeling i'm gonna be sick very soon.
i miss you... very much, my darling
i can't stop thinking of you.
tell me what should i do..
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Happy birthday to all de october babies!
its de month of oct. MANY october babies i know.. at least 8 that i can think of. that includes my sweetie pie, which is coming in 3 days time.
Its been a long time since i last post an entry. i've been very busy with school work, assignments and reports that has to be handed in... and so many tests are coming. tsk. time passes so fast. w/o realising, exam is coming in a mth's time!
i'm damn tired. i've been lacking of slp for the past week. i only slept for an hr last last night! been busy with card and assignment.. i went to sch and straight for tuition last night.. slept near 2.. and stayed12 hrs in sch today. superwoman? ha! 24 hrs is not enough for me. i need more time.
anyway, de one week holiday is over. it doesn't seem like a holiday to me at all. so short. too short with all assignments and reports that it doesn't even seem like a holiday at all.
on a lighter note, i received a private call today.
ok, i'm very tired. i've not bathe yet. oops.
2 birthday parties to attend this sat. oh man! can i buy time?
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这是我们的纪念日
i've never been to New York New York b4. heard that it was nice... sooo.. off we went!
went New York New York with alvin..!
i like this. i think their menu looks v nice! ok, logo or whatever u call that.. heh.
and at de end of de day.....
him acting stupid. lolx...
we didn't really take many photos. i forgot to bring my cam.. heh.
now, i'm thinking of what i want. adidas jacket? or wallet? or? i duno... bahh.. help me!
love you many many :))
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