Sunday, June 04, 2006 @3:11 AM
its one of the times where i feel frustrated in so many things. be it venezia, the upcoming irritating ~!#$%^&* tuition, rs and friends.
i've got so many things up in my mind currently that i think i may explode anytime. i have de urge to write so many things but when this blogger pg loads, everything goes blank. and only tears roll down my cheeks.
i don't know why i feel stressful all of a sudden. the new semester hasn't started yet. speaking of this, exam results coming out on de 6th of june, which is like, 2 days away?
i reached home bout an hr ago. its an off day for me today but sadly, i gotta work tmr :( how i wish money will just fall down frm de sky. why ain't i born in a rich family? in that case, i don't have to work.
i didn't know planning my work schedule for next wk can be that tough. its not that i'm really a busy woman or what. i wanna work cos i wanna earn money. i don't come frm a rich family. besides that, there's so many upcoming 21 bday parties this yr. i think or rather, i'm very sure i spent most of my money on my friends than on myself. but i don't mind. now, to plan my work schedule, i have to think of so many things. to think of de days i have to set aside for bf, for friends, for family, for things i have to do. but this wk seems so difficult to plan! and for goodness sake, i'm just selling ice cream, not some big business. -.-
lets say this wk, i can't work on sat and sun for sure cos its babe's bday. but now where will i have de time for alvin then? monday? was supposed to have tuition. thank goodness i haven't give sophia my schedule cos that tutor's mum came and change de day to tuesday. and i thought i will save tues for dinner with family cos my elder sis is leaving for dubai this wed. but she herself can't confirm w me too. put that aside, i need to do something. but now i need to do it alone. i need xw's help. now i have to see when xw will be free. i thought i cld work on wed but doubt so now. cos will be sending dajie off. we don't even know what time is her flight.. and i've got sth on that nite. so definitely can't do closing. thurs tuition again. and fri? so do i leave that day for alvin then? he can't confirm with me too, can he? i need to give sophia my schedule tmr.
but there's so much things now and everything's not confirm. how to give..
if i give and plan things according to my plan, what if last min there's changes? remember? i need to pay venezia or my pay gets cut off or whatever crap.
i was
asked begged to work frm 12 tmr instead of 4. I cldn't give an answer to her cos i need to confirm w my date. what if i promised her and my date doesn't agree cos we planned to go out? then even worse, my pay gets cut off for nothing. but end up, all i got was, my date forgot that we'll be going out. how frustrated and disappointed can i be. it may be a minor thing to u that you forgot, but for me, i cancelled everything just for you. ok, it may be a minor thing. but can i feel disappointed? can i have the right to feel that way?
so now what am i supposed to do? i hate it when everything is well planned and then its cancelled de v last min. last wk too. supposed to go ktv with uni classmates rem? i planned to work at 5pm. even gave time in case we are going to eat after singing. but it was cancelled the very last min again. So now what? i stayed at home till it was time for me to work at 5pm. if i knew earlier, i wld have just told sophia that i'll come at 12pm so that i can work longer hrs. its always cancelled de v last min. and i had to bloody work just 5.5hrs on a FRIDAY that has god damn many people, just earning that mere few bucks. i had to do CLOSING somemore.
ARGH.
on a lighter note, i met up with the polyclassmates just now.. the usual people but pris jeck denise and nelly didn't go. and of course, mr jacky chew wasn't there either. he was busy at mediacorp. we bought xiaoqi's bday present and had our meal at duno what sushi. not sakae, i forgot the name. it was a buffet and we only had 20min b4 the last order. we ordered LOTS of food and ended up, the stupid waitress came hinting us that there'll be a charge for the wastage of food. hello? we haven't finish eating yet. we didn't show signs that we were bout to go.. alright, though we really can't finish lah, the guys helped to finish de food.. but at least u can tell that to us when we ask for the bill right? =x
after meal, we took a cab down to liquid kitchen for a drink. ok, i spent quite alot today. so broke -.- i need my pay! met alvin after that for movie. x-men. the show's not bad. not as bad as what some of my friends comment. i duno why freddie can tell me he fell aslp halfway through.
i need to slp.
i'm mentally tired.
