Sunday, April 16, 2006 @5:06 PM
under what circumstances will someone really flare up with a friend?
i've never ever done so in de past to any of my friends.. scolding in such a harsh way.. saying ugly things that wld definitely ruin de friendship.
if anyone is unhappy bout what i'm going to blog. then pls don't read it. this is de only place where i can vent out all my frustrations just to make me feel better. anyway, if U [de one i'm mad with] happens to read it, i'm not gonna bother bout whether u are gonna hate me or so.. cos i don't think i'm in de wrong in de first place.
i'm not trying to make a big fuss out of it. i didn't wanna say till like this. but U were de one who chose it THIS way. you left me with no choice.
its an expensive lesson learnt.
through this lesson, you showed me what kind of person you really are.
i've finally seen through u.
i've never speak to a friend like this ever before. you're de
first and i NEVER expect that i'll say this to a friend. if you are ever reading this, let me tell you.. DON'T ever come and contact me again. GET IT?
STOP telling me you'll return but i don't hear anything frm u. STOP saying sorry after i sent out one harsh msg as if i'm one loanshark asking for money. i hate asking people for money [cos money hurts feelings] and when that money is NOT MINE. to think that u're thick skinned enough not to return knowing its my friend's. to think u still don't wanna return after azrin scolded u. aren't u ashamed?! STOP LYING and say that u're out in fieldcamp and telling me its wet and stuffs when you are obviously enjoying a swim. i'm not that naive..
u may be hating me for what i'm saying. but think bout it. ain't what i saying all de truth?
you're an officer and to think that u choose to avoid answering de calls and replying de msgs just because of 100 bucks.
and because of this matter, i didn't know if i shld tell alvin bout it. i was afraid to say out.. so i kept it frm him. given his temper and character, i knew he wld be angry with me. because its zh again. we never fail to quarrel because of this guy. sighs.
i thought for some time, and decided not to keep it frm him.
now i know the reason y u've been deleting ur msgs
i really don't regret calling u a slut
u wanna be in contact with all ur ex bfs... go ahead
don't ever contact me again.
and i mean it.but this is what i got.
'you're good at doing things behind people's back'he felt like a fool. i've got nothing to say..
if your bf says this, how wld u feel?
is it my fault for helping out a friend? i don't know how guys think. but ok i know its because that friend is zh. he has de right to be angry. but do i have to deserve all these then? being called a slut for lending money to a friend.
how am i suppose to feel now? ANGRY? UPSET? DISAPPOINTED?
i know there's not much trust btw alvin and i anymore. i've let him down because of zh b4.
so much for doing that good deed.
so much for saying out de truth. this is what i meant by ugly words.
who understands how i feel. why isit that only my friends know what is really going on but not him? gh asked me to write him an email.. and even suggested explaining to him. but i don't think its of any use. thanks friend.. but so what if i write an email.. so what if i explained everything. i tried just now. but nothing gets in.
i vow never ever to lend people money anymore.
its exam period. f*ck.
