maths paper was a killer today. hey, ok.. i didn't really study but alot say its tough. HMM, shld i be happy abt it? the sad thing is, I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO DO A SINGLE QN. not a single complete one. oh man.. i foresee myself retaking this whole semester again -.-
the stupid gastric pain is still there.. sucks. its really painful. how long will this last!?!? because of this, i cancelled my jb trip w joan!! argh. but nvm, we're going kbox later. tee hee! i'm so broke now. but let me enjoy once.. i'm super happy because exam's over! i'm free, till 7th aug! long holiday.. OUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
the pain is here again. f*ck.
gtg! i'm late!!
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ITS 3AM now! tmr's my LAST PAPER. finally. maths paper yet i'm not aslp. i've not even finished studying. sucks.
i just came back to xw's hall. yes, you must be thinking where did we go in de middle of de nite...
xw accompanied me to this WEST POINT FAMILY HOSPITAL. sounds so serious rite? YES ITS THAT SERIOUS TO ME!! i've got serious stomachache problem since last (last) nite. didn't wanna go initially cos i thought its just normal stomachache.. but i just cldn't tahan de pain. nearly cried k. its those on-off kind.. and its like my stomach's biting me. hahaha! my stomach looks so BLOATED. the doctor says it seems like i've got gastric.. my stomach's bloated and have got lots of wind inside :( how bad can this be.. tmr's maths paper. no choice, i spent almost 100 bucks can.. grrr. of cos, that includes the cab fare. the doc did give me a mc.. HMM.. i'm not stupid not to go for exams. but... i'm so afraid i'll fail. so its better to have an absent than a fail rite? haha..
sighs. i hope tt i'll feel better tmr. if not.. its such a waste of money!!!!!
oh btw, xiaomei told me m dajie has a blog! haha.. so sad, she's leaving for Dubai on babe's bday.
ok, i gtg study now :(
exams gonna be over in 9 hrs time!!
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right now in xw's hall alone. tee hee. meeting miss horny wenhooi for dinner
today's thermo paper was a killer. i dont know how to do all de qns except MCQ. omg. how i am gonna pass like that? i left ALOT of qns blank :( seriously wonder if i will pass. nying says ntu always moderate.. this i agree. but...... i left it blank BLANK BLANK!!!! how to give me marks like that? ahhh, i'm gonna tabao or get a D for so many modules this sem :( THERMO... didn't we learn this in poly b4? it was chicken feet in poly. but UNI... :( aiya, as usual.. i just hope everyone duno how to do. opps. but i don't think anyone wld be as cham as me lo. sighs.
xw's so lucky can. first paper yesterday and tmr's her last paper. -.- and me?? my exams started long long ago.. and it only ends on this fri. ahh. maths paper this fri.
i don't wanna get back my results. guess all Ds/fail this time round. last sem results was SUCKY ENOUGH. i thought i said i'll work hard last sem? =x
give me a pass pls... please!? =x
oh, and it was xiaowei's 21st bday yesterday!! we gave her a surprise AND... we ALL got another surprise (that was meant for xiaowei) by someone else.. LOLX.. can't help thinking what huishan said. LOLX..
oh, last sat was spent w darling and friends. tee hee.
i'm going off to meet miss horny now!
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5 papers down. thats fast. 2 more to go.. 2 tough papers ahead. maths and thermo.
today's paper was easy. yes jiaman finds it easy. but... she don't know how to do de qns behind :( hai. i wasted de whole of 2 days doing nothing. so i can only blame myself.
i like studying in hall. duno why. just got de mood to study when i'm in xw's hall.. maybe because i've got a companion. i can't seem to study at home these days.. cos i'll online w/o fail. HMM. mum's nagging me to get ready now.
i'm going xw's hall for de rest of de wk.. till exams over.
ok, gtg.
till then..
wish me luck for maths n thermo paper
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ahh, how stupid. i switched off my phone last nite and darling called me... :)
only to realise it after i on my phone just now..
we're fine now *double :)*
ok, back to study. in xw's hall now.
sucks. i gotta double my speed. cos i just started. oh well..
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o_O
mum suddenly came into de rm and asked, 'jiaman ni mei chi gen ni de nan peng you chu qu chi fan shi ni huan qian hai shi ta huan qian?'
what a qn to ask me.
am i oversensitive? why suddenly ask me bout my bf when we usually don't talk bout bfs...
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biochem paper.
first pg - *wow so easy* but, i forgot de formula.. was is Ss or Sb? which 'S' now? i know my answer is wrong cos how can Ss be more than Sb. leiyu's part was quite easy. i gave them all my theory marks.. i guess at least 20 marks worth of that. i didn't study for it. Prof vincent's part. i cldn't do any of them. its like more than half of de paper gone? i didn't even know what graphs to plot.. anyhow plot just for the sake of handing up de 2 graph papers. MY friends find it tough. maybe only us.. just pray that there's moderation [as usual].
fell sick on monday night. how great can this be.
AH sucks. just checked. formula both Ss. sucks. i put de top Sb bottom Ss. no wonder i can't get de answer. see. this kind of easy marks i just gave it away.
anyway, went to slp de moment i got back home. my head hurts. i cld only sleep for a few hrs.. so unlike me cos i didn't really slp de previous nite. woke up, got forced to have dinner by mum. but all i cld eat was only 2 chicken wings + soup. -.- then went back to bed .. nes called.. followed by azrin. yeap.. my aunt agony talked to me again b4 i can put myself to slp. decided to switch off de fone..
haven't on it since last nite. and i don't wish to on it.. cos it'll only make me feel disappointed and makes me feel worse.
gonna have a shower now.
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When I said go I never meant away
You ought to know the freaky games we play
Could you forgive and learn how to forget
Hear me as I'm calling out your name
Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
Tell me that you're lonely too
Firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun that's the way it ought to be
Firefly come back to me
You and me
we shared a mistery
We were so close
like honey to the bee
And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kind a way
Fly firefly through the sky
come and play with my desire
Don't be long,don't ask whyI can't wait another night
Wait another night
Don't be long
Fire...fly
Firefly come back
Firefly come back
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under what circumstances will someone really flare up with a friend?
i've never ever done so in de past to any of my friends.. scolding in such a harsh way.. saying ugly things that wld definitely ruin de friendship.
if anyone is unhappy bout what i'm going to blog. then pls don't read it. this is de only place where i can vent out all my frustrations just to make me feel better. anyway, if U [de one i'm mad with] happens to read it, i'm not gonna bother bout whether u are gonna hate me or so.. cos i don't think i'm in de wrong in de first place.
i'm not trying to make a big fuss out of it. i didn't wanna say till like this. but U were de one who chose it THIS way. you left me with no choice.
its an expensive lesson learnt.
through this lesson, you showed me what kind of person you really are.
i've finally seen through u.
i've never speak to a friend like this ever before. you're de first and i NEVER expect that i'll say this to a friend. if you are ever reading this, let me tell you.. DON'T ever come and contact me again. GET IT?
STOP telling me you'll return but i don't hear anything frm u. STOP saying sorry after i sent out one harsh msg as if i'm one loanshark asking for money. i hate asking people for money [cos money hurts feelings] and when that money is NOT MINE. to think that u're thick skinned enough not to return knowing its my friend's. to think u still don't wanna return after azrin scolded u. aren't u ashamed?! STOP LYING and say that u're out in fieldcamp and telling me its wet and stuffs when you are obviously enjoying a swim. i'm not that naive..
u may be hating me for what i'm saying. but think bout it. ain't what i saying all de truth?
you're an officer and to think that u choose to avoid answering de calls and replying de msgs just because of 100 bucks.
and because of this matter, i didn't know if i shld tell alvin bout it. i was afraid to say out.. so i kept it frm him. given his temper and character, i knew he wld be angry with me. because its zh again. we never fail to quarrel because of this guy. sighs.
i thought for some time, and decided not to keep it frm him.
now i know the reason y u've been deleting ur msgs
i really don't regret calling u a slut
u wanna be in contact with all ur ex bfs... go ahead
don't ever contact me again.
and i mean it.
but this is what i got.
'you're good at doing things behind people's back'
he felt like a fool. i've got nothing to say..
if your bf says this, how wld u feel?
is it my fault for helping out a friend? i don't know how guys think. but ok i know its because that friend is zh. he has de right to be angry. but do i have to deserve all these then? being called a slut for lending money to a friend.
how am i suppose to feel now? ANGRY? UPSET? DISAPPOINTED?
i know there's not much trust btw alvin and i anymore. i've let him down because of zh b4.
so much for doing that good deed.
so much for saying out de truth. this is what i meant by ugly words.
who understands how i feel. why isit that only my friends know what is really going on but not him? gh asked me to write him an email.. and even suggested explaining to him. but i don't think its of any use. thanks friend.. but so what if i write an email.. so what if i explained everything. i tried just now. but nothing gets in.
i vow never ever to lend people money anymore.
its exam period. f*ck.
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Sometimes i hate myself so much, for falling so deeply in love. cos i'm de one who ends up getting hurt.
a guy can be sweet n nice w his words. but his real ugly words can be so hurting that it seems like there's a thousand needles piercing right thru yr heart when u hear that.
sometimes u feel numb bout it.. but u know, yr heart is crying.
love. i no longer trust and wonder if it still [or does] exist. i've quite lost faith in this word called love.
why am i suffering now?
i wonder how those rs out there lasts.. i wonder how married couples cld be together for de rest of their lives..
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can anyone tell me?
i always hear pple saying guys will know if gers are still a V.
HOW?
then does a ger know if de guy is still a V?
HOW?
o_O
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i've NOT offended u in any ways today.
stop giving me that kind of f* up attitude like i've done sth wrong. cos it seriously feels sucky.
i thought i cld enjoy/give myself a break tonight. but ya, i'm all alone now.
today's paper is enough to upset me. i don't need U to upset me further.
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i may be silly. i must have been blinded. but i'm not that stupid afterall. well, except in terms of academic wise. =x
today's paper is a killer. IF i had known earlier, i wld rather not study prof ng's part & just study wang dong an's part. sucks.. studied prof ng's & forgot prof wang's. end up, too much stuffs to rem.. and forget everything!!! worse thing, what i studied for prof ng's didn't come out. this paper is de worse one. worse than last sem. i'm so gonna tabao this module unless everyone is in de same plight as me. but common, so many jcs & ATs here. just pray hard, cross my fingers & hope they'll so some moderation. so now, isit a gd thing that they didn't wanna let us know our quiz's marks?
i like to hear everyone saying the paper's tough. it makes me feel much better. oops. hahaha.. but of cos pls say de truth la. don't tell me its tough when yr tough = u duno how to do a few marks. my definition of tough is confirm tabao kind. those no matter how u count yr marks u still can't get a passing mark. whats worse now, the 2 quizzes we took is also definitely a gone case. gonecase paper when u see de quiz soln. sighs. uni's so tough. unlike poly.. at least u feel u are cleverer when u are in poly... hahaha~
ok, i've decided to give myself a break tonite!! CH2002 was such a mental torture. i wanna get back de slp i lost for de past few days. pimples popping out... alvin booking out later. tee hee.
.... he just called. supposed to meet tonight. but.. sighs.
looked so forward to tonight but .argh. forget it.
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brain's not functioning well. its absorbing those organic stuffs at a very slow speed. -.- my brain is not saturated yet.. but it seems like i can't get anything into my head. u know.. it goes in one side.. and goes out the other way.. grrrrrr.. so stressed and fed up! cinema paper tmr. gonna bullshit. sighs. i'm so so scared of CH2002.
17 days to freedom :)
can't wait can't wait I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
been daydreaming of WHAT TO DO AFTER HOL instead of mugging. tsk. this is BAD.
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how many understand whats de meaning of true love?
even i myself also can't say that i know. is there any in de first place?
true love is never meant to be? thats what i always read/hear.
but all i know is loving someone makes u wanna do something for him.. sacrifice anything for him.. you pray for his safety when he's away.. you're happy when he's happy, it pains you when you see him sad.. you think of him every moment.. you mention to every of yr friends bout him.. you feel proud in everything he does.. you smile when you see his photo... you'll keep all his msgs.. you rem each and every word he says.. you don't lie to him, not even a single lie.. he's de one and only one who'll be able to cheer you up when you're down (even yr bestest friends can't do that, no matter how hard they try)... you don't get angry at all no matter what he does.. you'll only get upset and disappointed.. you're sensitive to what he says.. and lastly, even to de extend that you're happy for him when he likes another ger.. as long as he's happy.. you'll be happy.
no matter how many negative comments yr friends give bout him, you'll still think that he's good, in your eyes. you know very well how he's like, you tell yourself its not right. you tell yourself to forget. you did it, but everytime he comes.. all de negative thoughts you had in yr mind just disappear. your friends tell you he comes to you when he needs help.. when he feels like it. he disappears when he has enough of you. in your heart, maybe you agree with them. but a part of you still think he's not that bad after all. maybe his sweetness melts yr heart when you see him. too many a times, he stood you up. until you become numb.. and you learnt how to handle it better when he leaves again.
is this ger silly? in uglier words, stupid? foolish? has anyone felt this way before?
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just finished watching superband. i don't really watch this kinda show esp when the competition just starts.. cos there's so many grps! so for project and campus superstar i only watch when there's only 4 contestants left.. haha.. so i only know that few.. those prominent ones. lolx.. but this time its different, cos jacky is inside. at least its someone i know, my poly classmate.
some of de groups cannot make it lo.. super irritating.. not that i'm bias or what, but i seriously think jacky's grp aka J3 is one of de better ones. haha!
HMM.. studied organic chem today. hai. sickening module.. de professor has sent us de distribution of grades. god.. some got lowest i think its 20+. and there's a few that scored 30+/40+. i have this gut feeling i'm one of them. but i really hope i'm not.. HAI.. gonna finish wang dong an's part by tonite and shall start prof ng's part tmr. not much time left for me to study. shit.. spent so much time watching superband :(
hope J3 gets in! do ngee ann proud. do 1A01 proud. wahaa! i'm mad. too much of studying (ya rite) i guess. haha..
going bonkers. mind's saturated w organic :(
people say i'm softhearted. towards de one i (truly) love/care... and they'll always take advantage of that weakpt of me.
:(
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I came online to check my mail as well as to print de quiz answer.
tadah, i saw this email sent by.. i duno who.
Look how desperate we are..
words in red by student
words in blue by prof wang dong an :)
hi prof
i would like to ask for some advice in preparing for the finals.it is said that the finals will be of equal standard as the quiz. i have done my preparation, reading lecture notes, doing tut and reading the textbook. however i still find it difficult to handle the quiz. i do not know what else i can do to ensure a better grade, any advice?
thanks
Regards
OMG... this person is so well prepared!! even read de tb.. oh man, i haven even finish studying at all...
Hi - I have finished marking around half of the papers. So far we already have over 5 people who got the grades of upper 90... The advice will be (1) to understand the mechanism and use it to memorize the reactions for applications; (2) to study the CA Q&As thoroughly, as well as the tutorial Q&As.
o_O over upper 90?!?! oh man!!!
Dear sir,
U only mention that there are 5 people. How about the others result? Is it over all good? I ask this because I don't think I am scoring more than 50 although I have already tried hard for this quiz.
yes yes... i also wanna know this!! if its me, i'll be saying.. i don't think i am scoring more than 15.
We will always have the distribution of grades - no matter where it can never be "over all good" though. I may show the grade distribution to you later on. Take my advice and take it easy. It may not be that bad and it would be fine.
How to take it easy? ;( getting so pek cek over this module. grr..
This prof is a super nice guy. He knows his stuffs v well and he teaches much better than the other one .. but so sad, no matter how hard i try to study for this module, i just can't answer those qns at all. all i can do is just STARE at de qns.. quiz still can try asking people for help.. but exams how!?!? sucky module.. CH2002 i hate u!!
i checked de quiz answer, i flunked badly. seriously wonder how these people can get 90+. tsh. if there's so many people getting this grade, i think there'll be no moderation!! grrr. kill these people.
another mat sc. argh! notes looks easy. but quiz turns out to be so tough. stupid tim tan. hmm. shld call him tim tam. hahaha.. =x
ah ha.. here's another email.
Prof,
I'm *** from CBE year 1. I am wondering if you can upload the important things that we need to learn for the final exam in the edventure? Thank you.
Regards,
***
Hi ***,
I have already done the revision during Wed class. The important things that I have highlighted during the revision class, plus the first slides of all the lecture notes which summarize all the things you have to know/understand/explain etc etc....., are the important things you have to learn for this course and exam.
I know this is not exactly what you are asking for, but I think I have done my best to help all of you.....it's now your turn to help yourself :-)
Study hard, but remember to take regular breaks to refresh......
Cheers,
Timgrr. he's always like that.
hai.. gotta go. wish me luck for exams!
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Had my dinner at lot one earlier on...
anyway, i stayed in xw's hall for 2 days. haa.. its much betta than lyn's hall. anyway tests are over. both tests sucks. i flunk badly in both organic tests. oh man, i'm so gonna tabao that! pls.. i hope everyone do badly so that i don't have to tabao. thats de only way out isn't it? =x but common, so many clever people ard.. sighs. just pray hard that i'll pass.. miracles do happen, isn't it? i do hope so this time round..
i didnt' have a gd wink for de past wk.. so tired.. its friday today but i feel so bored and slpy. exams coming in less than a wk.. wed's my first paper. sucks. maybe i'll go slp now.. get fully charged and then start studying tmr morning.
hai... 28th april. pls come, QUICK! ;(
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i'm still at chapter 2. not much progress.. been staring into spaces and building castles in de air. shit.
anyway, took some fotos today during in sch.
alvin and me @ a music cafe on sat nite. (duno why he always love to go these kinda places)
that's cai li lian.. the one who sang guan huai fang shi. they're super funny
today during our break...
this is ONG li lian. lolx.. i realised they have de same name.. oh man, why i sit until so chor lor.. =x
C25 peeps. frm left, gladys, si ying, guan hong, me & lilian
;( what are u TRYING to do....!!! i think his mouth is cramped lah
nice rite? i mean de ger.. lol.. just kidding. the new couple. guan hong & si ying
snap what snap!
i sit ma chiam i'm at home like that. =x
at nie lib... stress. exams coming VERY SOON.
opps. why de pics become so small? aiyo. nvm. gotta go...
gd nite
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i thought i can study much this weekend but it didn't seem to be this way. i've only studied 2 chapters so far for organic and none for mat sc! :( i need to buck up. gonna stay in sch to study else i'll online at home. sucks..
last wkend.. i'm still brooding over this. i'm still thinking of what happened.. so much things happened that it seems to be a dream.. a dream that turned into reality. this seems so scary cos it always happened like that.
i think i'm repeating over and over again what i'm saying.. because i just can't believe it.
sighs.
double sighs.
triple sighs.
i need to erase that off my mind. but a part of me is telling me that i can't.
u're a part of me.
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i wanna thank my precious friends for lending me a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. you guys know who u r...
thanks for listening.. thanks for accompanying me throughout de nite.. thanks for telling me what i didn't know... i really appreciate u guys.
things happened. and some things can't be erased. i'll never forget this nite.
its a huge impact on all of us..
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Its supposed to be a happy day. but it wasn't. ended up quarrelling again. n its de worst quarrel ever.
ugly words said.
i'm disappointed, angry and hurt.
we just can't communicate well.
i didn't do that on purpose. i'm sorry and i can't forgive myself for doing that too.
will blog again.
i need to get out of this house.
be back b4 de sun rises maybe.
gd nite.
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i'm super tired. didn't study much at all. in fact, i didn't really study. fell aslp de moment i held onto my CH2002 - Benzene & Aromaticity notes :(
then i had a dream. i've been having dreams these days. and it involves de same people.
it is a nice dream. everything was so perfect.
it almost.
wth am i talking bout.. i'm still so slpy. babbling rubbish now *yawns*
the people in my dream are living in my subconcious mind.
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yay! super happy today. dunno why. haha! because its a friday, lessons end earlier than any other days, alvin booked out, what else?? had dinner with my sweetie pie just now!! been quite some time since i last saw him. He's grown taller but looks more like a ger now. lolx! maybe cos his hair is longer now. haha.. we had this chong qing (isit? i duno) steamboat thingy at tanglin mall. food.. alright lah, quite special compared to any other steamboats. but its much more expensive than those normal steamboats i think? or isit de same? 140+++bucks for 4 people.
i didn't have any programmes after that. so end up went to meet my Mr 21 YOV. and tadah.. just reached home. i'm super tired due to de lack of slp for the past few days. stupid testsss.. 2 more next wk followed by exams de wk after. hai.. endure. then i can enjoy my 3 mths of holiday! 3 months!!! 3 months u know!! woahooO! hehehe..
k lah, i'm really falling aslp in front of my lappie. gotta take a bath and catch some beauty sleep :)
i missed my last episode of that xing shan shan!! anyone watched it? whats de ending??
kk.. gonna bathe..
gd nite :)
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